Life is the best Film :)

One's Own Life is the most beautiful film One can see ….

How many characters ....

How many emotions ….

How many breaks ....

It makes you crave for care, love , and 

It makes you raise your emotions for seeing your loved ones ,

It makes you cry for seeing your loved ones leaving you ,

It teaches you to sit calm to wait for breaks which might come or never comes ,

And it teaches you to accept unwanted breaks to make you bold to face breaks yet to come ,

In the end , It just matters how you watched your film , cause you are the film .....

What ever it takes .........

This part of writing gives me real happiness. I am going to express a true lot of incidents and accidents in my path towards finding myself !!
My Life was an unplanned trip. Always ends up with something less or more !!
But it really worked for me . It gave me a hidden truthful lesson to get a prepared trip !!
Now I believe that am walking though a planned path . A seat in the great Film and Television Institute of India, Pune for Sound recording Course . A supportive group of people around, a good vision and a 5 year plan in heart , a laptop to scribble all I want and a place to post all my thoughts

But to reach here , it took a lot out of me !!
But before I talk a lot about myself , let me tell you something very clearly .
Even now , what I say or claim as a planned path is a planned path for just me
For my relatives and even for my mother , it’s the most stupid decision I have or anyone could possible take in ones  life . But I have been a stupid for myself all these years , until now !!
So stupidity is subjective and as I am writing here , I am subjective over my side

I always had a coffee and chat with the toughest times ….
It gives a one to one dealing with how you can be more crazier !!
Days just went and I loved the craziness in me .
I started understanding that I am not dead and I have something in me to live for …
A deep passion , like we heard in the movie INCEPTION !
An idea …. An Idea , once implanted into ones mind, is soo powerful that it can change a lot !



I have a kid within me yelling out for a lot different things .
Having nothing was always my feel , when everyone described me as the perfect life with everything
A day or the other I ask myself , is it worth to do what ever we want ?
If it makes you happy and feel like living , yes !
If it makes you feel good , and do more, yes ….
I had unhappy days of doing all sort of things which never wabted to do, but did .
Starting from changing of many schools in my life (I finished my schooling in a total of 4 schools), followed by getting into engineering college instead of an arts of college , then going to a regular job sitting in front of computers and not doing anything creative at all ….

Life was horrible . But in between I tried to do something which makes me feel good.
Watching movies always was a medicine for me .
I got my queen of my life , and I met her during my first job in software .
The only reason I have to say that I am happy about my first job !

Then it was her inspiration to find a better me in me !
She found my interest in music and sound recording .
It was during my first job in a company called UST Global, when I was a little active in singing, composing and recording songs and sounds , that I found my good interest lies in Sound recording .
I bought a Philips Dynamic Microphone – SBC MD150 from Music world and a sennheiser headphones !!I dint know what to do with it , but I wanted to record professional quality sound .
I bought some headphones , and some wires and joined a guitar class .
I recorded some sounds , but it dint really come up well.
Noise was every where !!
Then I decided to do something for this .

Then came FTII …..
A new chapter in my life .
It was on 2008 …
I was researching in internet over this , and she pointed out FTII is the best place to learn about sound recording !!
Then I did some research and understood what she said is right !!
But we came to know the sad news that just 2 days back they closed the intake of forms for that year . Thus we missed the deadlines …
Then waited for one long year , and gave my first attempt , years went on and many things happened in my life – Both good and Bad ….
And this year , I am getting into FTII .

Finally the question is
Are you happy ?
Yes , I am …..

That’s all it takes and matters
Do what ever you want and what ever it takes,
happiness is all it matters .....

Story is not over yet ....
Finding oneself is a beautiful process and it goes on ......

Its still a dream. And i am alive.

Its still a dream. And i am alive.

Dreams are great . Cause when you realize its a dream, you have forgotten most of it. Except for those who keep it till you see it 4 real !!

3 years back, when i finished my b.tech and realized that i am an engineer and not a student any more and need to go office wearing neat dress, wear ropes around our own neck, wear full sleeves stuffing the heat within inside, drive long ways and enter the zone where people smile for money, talk for money and sleep for money ,i felt sad. Cause i thought after all 4 years of college life wouldn't end up so soon.

I remember how my Amma struggle to feed lessons to my brain and get me passed in exams :) Life is so fast .

I love songs, music, sound, films, pictures. My ambition is to work in films .
This dream came long before i finish my b.tech. But i finished b.tech . College going was my last option in a day's list !! I neva used to attend the first 3 periods. Getting up late and missing the trains were not actually fun . But i cant get up early . So i found some fun in missing trains.

I started dreaming this dream , which is still haunting me . 2 months back i have written my ftii entrance for sound engineering course, and 2 months back i have left the company too . Results are not yet announced. And right now , i dont have a job . Basically jobless .

Dreams can come true. What will be my FTII dream be.
Its a dream and am still alive to get it true .

Dreams can come true :)

Months later ..........

Date: Nov 1st 2010 .

Its late night . I just opened FTII site to check the entrance results . And my name is shortlisted . Finally dreams coming true. :)

Dreams will come true :)

Thanks to my mom , my sister sister Sindhu, Salini , teachers , my guitar sir Rakesh , every useless who tried to depress me by discouraging me which inturn helped me to achieve things by getting in as a fire to get things done , thanking FTII . Thanking everyone .

Dreams will surely come true :)

All you need to do is ............................Dream :)