I studied in the light of a kerosene lamp

The dialogue of old people "I studied in the light of a kerosene lamp"
Big Deal !!!!


When there is a single light, with no sounds of tv serials and other programms running ,
and no other disturbing sounds like mixy running or even the screetchin fan sounds,
its the best place to study :)


Its very easy to get full concentration.


Do it now , then u r great !!


tv running 24/7 . Speakers shouting out political lies or songs for temples,
the sudden melodious ringtone from mobile phone, the bells,
the kitchen sounds, sounds sounds sounds ...


and to make things worse , light everywhere ...
where should i sit and study ...


many choices .... should lie on sofa and read or enjoy the comfort of chair and table with all lights around 
or with walking in marble flooring with ac on ?????


WTH ... with all these comforts, u can concentrate on a boring thing like study or its tought to concentrate where there are literally no entertainment around ,
and to increase the beauty of it , u have just one single calm glowing light kept to pull all ur attention like when doing meditation :)




So when someone says they studied in the light of a kerosene ,
please dont arguewith them, but have a self happiness that we are actually more great :)




I want to do sound engineering , and the most challenging part of any sound engineer i know is to avoid as much noise as possible to get the perfect sound (required sounds alone). Which has always been the toughest part ... Sound can come anywhere .... and we call the unwanted sounds as "Noise". 




Sound always fascinated me from childhood ...


Remember the excitement i had when i got the first transistor (small portable FM Radio). 
The first time i heard a song using headphones,
the first time i recorded sounds in magnetic tapes :)


And infact the first time i got beaten up by mom , for accidently recording junk on a newly bought music cassete :)




Love my childhood ....


Love life 

Soumitra Chatterjee named for Dada Saheb Phalke Award

Soumitra Chatterjee named for Dada Saheb Phalke Award : 


As with the usual timings , the Greatest Indian Award for Film Industry is announced for the year 2012


And the Award goes to the LEgendary Bengali Actor : Soumitra Chatterjee


                                  


                                      



"I am extremely happy. Till this evening I had not thought of this award. 
But after I got the news I am extremely happy," -- Soumitra Chatterjee




Born in KrishnaNagar ,WestBengal, Soumitra got his biggest break when Satyajit Ray decided to make Apu a big man in "Apur Sansar"
As noted on the official website for Ray, "At that time, Soumitra Chatterjee was a radio announcer and had only played a small role 
in a Bengali stage production . 


                                       



Apur Sansar was folowed by Devi , Teen Kanya , Charulata , Kapurush,Parineeta , Devdas , Ghare Baire , and the list goes on even till now.
His latest film is The Nowhere Son (2012) , the film in which A young physician gives up everything in search of his father who goes missing 
after refusing to sell his house to the local politician.


                      



When Satyajit Ray decided to end his trilogy , he would have thought really well to put the right person , and his choice was perfect as always.


When Soumitra Chatterjee's very first movie was released in 1959 , he has got many awards , and to point out ,
he has rejected awards too . (In a gesture of protest against the National Film Awards committee's bias in awarding popular 
and mainstream cinema, he turned down the 2001 special jury award for best actor)


                                    


                                 

                            


                                    


                                               

                                               




                                              


                                               

                                               

  

On 9th June 2008, he was selected for the 2007 National Film Award for Best Actor by the Government of India. On 21 March 2012, 
he was selected by the Government of India for the Dadasaheb Phalke Award.


With all pride, lets wish talents like him are recognised always .

FTII 2012 Entrance Fever

There comes FTII entrance exam for the various one and 3 year courses ....
Waited for this badly ...

I was following the website from the day my name was published in their website on 2010 .
2010 gave me the best experience in my life .
Got selected for the 5 day orientation programm in FTII, Pune , clearing the Entrance Exam .
The days i spent in the university was splendid .
Met many guys studying in there and are very good friends now..
Gaurav, Ajayan , Pranshul Shukla , Smijith . Swaroop, Ashwani Sharma ,Sponge  Mani, Arun, and many more...

I wished the orientation programme was a little more extented .

I loved the life there in the campus .
I am a totally reserved person who dont open my mouth much , but there ...
That place was like my home. People of same wave lengths,
same dreams , same kinda thoughts , and same kinda life style .

2011 was for me like waiting for some one soo close to my heart who never turned up :(
FTII announced 2011 as zero intake year ...

No entrance exam , nothing ... Still i was seeing the ftii website daily hoping that its just another rumour .
But it was not a rumour.

I joined another software company :( with still crying inside to join sound engineering course and start learning from the experts ... and used my time reading more about sound recording and editing .
It was really great that i realised that one more year has gone and its 2012 ...

Finally they have announced the exams will be on May 2012 .
I have applied for Sound and waiting now for the exams .

Mean while i am searching out for a job which i can do from the campus with my system so that my parent dont feel my finaciall absence all of a sudden . Past 3 years i was earning . Suddenly going for studies will be a shock for them .

Love this dream of mine .
I started blogging when i started dreaming about FTII .
And this is just the starting ...

Wish i get through this year and start my course finally .... :)

There is nothing called "PAST"

Why does the past experience in ur life keeps haunting u?
why cant u , urself cant get rid of it completly ?

why when u cant do it urself, blame it on others that they remember ur past !!

So why its called "PAST", when it plays ur present ,
when it will make ur future...

There is no past
There is no past in life..

there is just this ... present

and this present is totally dependent on what ur past is and what ur future is gonna be

The boy in the striped pajamas

There is one boy in the striped pajamas, without everyone ...

Kill him or save him ....

ur dreams , the real you should be killed or should be saved is upon you ...

Just you ....


Be the boy in the striped pajamas or fly free ...

decide ....

want a time machine to go back to school time

rain is over... walking with sister , splash those tree leaves to get those rain drops fall on us , and feel the happiness . And then suddenly see mom standing there at a distance and realising the fact we got wet even it was not raining :)

walking along the roads , waiting for fast approaching vehicles to splash the water :)

picking up more chocolates from granny's sweet shop :)

cycle racing :)

first innocent proposal at 4th dtandard :)

first kiss :)

keeping a small paper filled with answers during exams :)

pulling the cable wire when grandpa's news starts :)

eating from every one's tiffen box :)

pinching beautiful girls , and when they ask , telling them "new dress na ? nice......" :)

correcting marks using red ink :)

watching the first porn :)

first puff :)

boasting of everything including the new dress, pencil box, lunch box, pencil and water bottle on the first day of school each year :)

stealing snacks :)

counting the cash we get on Vishu and determining who is the richest :)

crying when asked to swallow tablets :)

showing my innocent face and escaping from all the dirty things i do :)

waiting to reach school each day to see the new teacher :)

Rakhi, Kavya :)

Kavya's  lost badge in my pencil box for almost a year :)

10th board exams :)

crying for days thinking of my dog's death ...




missing everything :(

change

badly needs a change

doing the same work daily

wanna be a explorer ....

sound is life

its fuckin crazy to feel the sound.
sound is life.

feel the sound and u feel life ...

love it ...

dreaming is easy

dreaming is easy 


when i first met her, she was not mine


her breeze slides through me , and i felt my soul lifted up.


then  i started seeing her once in a while


each time i see her i can see just her


She was glowing soo brigh that everything else fades


she remains in my eyes for hours and in heart for decades.




She was soo attractive. i fell in love with her.




i was soo badly in love with her that i was afraid of what happens to me if cant get her in my life


knowing this , i wanted to take care of me , 


so one fine day i approched her .


she was happy seeing me, but i dont know if she will be happy to be happy being my love


I know i would burn to dust , if i fail here , 


and i know i would burst to sky if i win here .


in both cases , i wanted to delay it.




I felt those words were soooo heavy that they were not coming out ,


my heart beat silenced the sound of life,


and i sliced my heart to be silent


And her eyes were glowing like i saw a diamond flashed with a million watts flash


I proposed her 










I started hearing heart pounding sound again .


this time...  hers ...




she said ,


i am happy to be urs ................












Who said flying is costly .


no flights , no boozings , 


i flew ...




heart was light like the finest thread of cotton , and we started loving 








Love is in the air 








its years now ... still i havent recieved her completly in my life . 


my  2   dreams  




that day she comes to my life as my wife


that day i become a sound engineer ....






Love is beautiful 

my SRFTI exam :)

Almost a year have passed ... Last year when i wrote the FTII exam , i had no idea of how i can pay the fee , how i will manage things , how i will reolve the issues raised due to my sudden stop of job for studies, how my personal life is going to get affected by my interest in studies , and the confusion goes on ....

Its been a year now , the aftershocks of the FTII final reults actually dint last for more than a week , as my hopes of re-appearing next year fueled my spirits . But those fuel gathered over a period of one year were lighted to burst it when i heard that its a Zero intake year this year in FTII , to clear the backlog guys and also make sure the batches henceforth are leavin the campus on time !!

Then came SRFTI ...
I was almost sure that i will not join this (if i clear the exams and interview too), as FTII has rooted in too deep with its reputation and alumni history .... But i was left with no choice . I am too restless ... Each day i see FTII website to hear any signs of Admission process, but not seeing anything . So i finally decided to apply for SRFTI . As ranking is considered , even though websites and blogs claim SRFTI has mainatained to a level of FTII , its always behing FTII only . So it comes as 2nd rank :)

Application filling , DD taking , pasting the color picture and sending it ... all done .
Whats the difference ... nothing but now i have to check 2 websites hereafter :)

Then came the eligible guys for exam ...
tadaaa .... my name is not there !!
Thought i am not eligible to write it though !!

days went off , 2 days bfore the exam , a call
"ur form reached us really late . But u can write the exam " ...

Today almost a year after FTII exam , have written SRFTI exam .....
Waiting for the results ....