dreaming is easy

dreaming is easy 


when i first met her, she was not mine


her breeze slides through me , and i felt my soul lifted up.


then  i started seeing her once in a while


each time i see her i can see just her


She was glowing soo brigh that everything else fades


she remains in my eyes for hours and in heart for decades.




She was soo attractive. i fell in love with her.




i was soo badly in love with her that i was afraid of what happens to me if cant get her in my life


knowing this , i wanted to take care of me , 


so one fine day i approched her .


she was happy seeing me, but i dont know if she will be happy to be happy being my love


I know i would burn to dust , if i fail here , 


and i know i would burst to sky if i win here .


in both cases , i wanted to delay it.




I felt those words were soooo heavy that they were not coming out ,


my heart beat silenced the sound of life,


and i sliced my heart to be silent


And her eyes were glowing like i saw a diamond flashed with a million watts flash


I proposed her 










I started hearing heart pounding sound again .


this time...  hers ...




she said ,


i am happy to be urs ................












Who said flying is costly .


no flights , no boozings , 


i flew ...




heart was light like the finest thread of cotton , and we started loving 








Love is in the air 








its years now ... still i havent recieved her completly in my life . 


my  2   dreams  




that day she comes to my life as my wife


that day i become a sound engineer ....






Love is beautiful 

my SRFTI exam :)

Almost a year have passed ... Last year when i wrote the FTII exam , i had no idea of how i can pay the fee , how i will manage things , how i will reolve the issues raised due to my sudden stop of job for studies, how my personal life is going to get affected by my interest in studies , and the confusion goes on ....

Its been a year now , the aftershocks of the FTII final reults actually dint last for more than a week , as my hopes of re-appearing next year fueled my spirits . But those fuel gathered over a period of one year were lighted to burst it when i heard that its a Zero intake year this year in FTII , to clear the backlog guys and also make sure the batches henceforth are leavin the campus on time !!

Then came SRFTI ...
I was almost sure that i will not join this (if i clear the exams and interview too), as FTII has rooted in too deep with its reputation and alumni history .... But i was left with no choice . I am too restless ... Each day i see FTII website to hear any signs of Admission process, but not seeing anything . So i finally decided to apply for SRFTI . As ranking is considered , even though websites and blogs claim SRFTI has mainatained to a level of FTII , its always behing FTII only . So it comes as 2nd rank :)

Application filling , DD taking , pasting the color picture and sending it ... all done .
Whats the difference ... nothing but now i have to check 2 websites hereafter :)

Then came the eligible guys for exam ...
tadaaa .... my name is not there !!
Thought i am not eligible to write it though !!

days went off , 2 days bfore the exam , a call
"ur form reached us really late . But u can write the exam " ...

Today almost a year after FTII exam , have written SRFTI exam .....
Waiting for the results ....